8.20.2006

I Have No Idea What To Title This ...

My best friend got murdered 6 years ago. He was in an apartment and they were baggin up weed and some nigger (i fully mean that word in the disparaging way, too)shot him in the head over a dime of fuckin weed that he didn't wanna pay my friend for. Yeah. Now, if you think thats the worst of it, it's not. At Mikhails funeral, the nigger(s) who allegedly killed him showed up. Me and my homegirl were sittin second row, and we heard some niggas bumblin and stumblin through the funeral home and one of em distinctly said "Whatcha'll lookin at us for? WE aint kill the nigga" to a couple people who was lookin at them I guess. I never ever in life had seen/heard no shit like that at a funeral. My best friend in the entire world was layin up in a casket (open) with his head swollen to the point of no recognition, you could barely even tell it was him...and these bitch ass niggas came and disrespected him. Mikhails brother tried to get at them, and I believe if his Moms wasn't there to hold his hand he woulda did somethin SERIOUS. Security escorted them out. Anyway. Last night I had a dream about Mikhail...this shit was different though. It really, truly, 100% felt REAL. We were sittin in my room, in the dark talkin like normal. He told me I was gonna be a good Mom, and he was lookin at this bassonette I have in my room. We talked about his lil sister (whom I happened to see yesterday mornin at the store) too. The shit that kinda makes me feel weird about this dream is, it didn't feel like a dream. Cuz when I woke up, I SWEAR my room smelled like Jordan cologne (ya'll remember the Jordan cologne right? lol), and I wasn't sad or anything. Cuz I've had dreams about him before and I'd wake up and just go into tears. Come to think of it, I haven't had a dream about him in like a year. Now, I don't believe in ghosts or no crazy mess like that...I do, however, believe in spirits (i.e. God)...does that make sense? My mama said he was visitin me. What do YOU think?

7 Comments:

Blogger shereejoi said...

They say dreams do mean something. Believing in spirits that makes sense. I agree with your moms that he was visiting you.

11:49 AM  
Blogger JerseyTjej said...

Yo, Chicka...Been off the blog circut for a piece. He be visitin and glad that he has somewhere close to home he can be and just be...I TOTALLY believe in visits! How long 4 the baby is due and do you have a wish list?

2:50 PM  
Blogger Teej said...

I think your mama was right. He came to visit you baby. When the connection is that strong it happens. He wanted to let you know that he knows you'll be a good mom.
Nothing weird about it at all.

10:16 PM  
Blogger NegroPino™ said...

I believe in spirits too.....i dont nessarily think they come to visit me but i have premonitions and i have angels guiding me

1:49 PM  
Blogger Nika Laqui said...

Energy never dissipates, I believe.
Dreams are a part of our mind that we aren't able to tap into at any given moment, because we only us a small percentage of our brains (I think 7%).

I hate having those kind of dreams when I can't decipher what they mean, however, I do heed whatever warning they may provide.
My dreams tend to come true in some shape or form....

I'm glad none of my homeboys was off at the funeral, cause it woulda got SENT UP, them niggas coming in acting a damn fool and admitting to murdering my guy....

5:11 PM  
Blogger Lovely and Lavish... said...

I believe it probably was him...at least its comforting to know that he says you are gonna be a good mom :). Crazy how life works!

6:08 PM  
Blogger beautyinbaltimore said...

It is soooo disrespectful to go to someone's funeral and act a fool.
Nice blog

11:46 PM  

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